The first hurdle

Okay, so day one has come and gone - thankfully! I was "good" all day - no sweets, no mindless eating, no televisin trance noshing. And then my hubby said, "let's take our daughter out to dinner as a treat before she leaves for school tomorrow ." Really? I'm trying to diet and you want to go out?? "WHere to?" I asked.
"Olive Garden. She loves that place."
Olive Garden? Friggin' OLIVE GARDEN??!! A carbohydrates lovers' mecca? A dieter's hell on earth!!??
Okay, so I bit the proverbial diet bullet and went. I had a plan and - believe or not - stuck with it. I had soup and salad, that's it. No bread; no pasta; no delicious oozy desserts.
Can you spell DEPRIVATION!!!??
All around me, including at my own table, were delicious, carb heavy, calorie laden delights. I smelled grilled salmon coming from my right, done in a creamy white sauce reduction; to my left a lady had a bowl of endless pasta with thick red sauce and meatballs the size of soccer balls. When the dessert tray went by I nearly cried.
But I held true and never once reached for a hot garlicy bread stick our waiter had so nicely ( read "meanly!") placed on our table
Oh well, at least I know I can do it if I really put my mind to it. So, for all that deprivation ,I'm down 2/10 of a pound this am on the scale. I was really hoping for a full pund, not 2/10's of one,but I'll take what I can get. At least it's a loss.
We'll see what temptations and hurdles come my way today.

Words of dieting wisdom from Robert Ferguson, Diet guru

Goals we set are goals we can get. This year replace the word "If" with "When" because affirming what's to come helps bring it to fruition!

The first day of the rest of my life!

Well, here it is: another January 1 and I am starting ANOTHER weight loss journey. This one, I vow, will be different. First of all I am making it hugely public by doing this blog. I figure that there is accountability in letting people know firsthand that I am trying to lose weight. The fear of failure when people know what you are trying to do is a good motivator for me to keep at it. Second, with 50 years of age sneaking up on me in a few months, I want to be healthy and lean for the next half century and stop this rollercoaster of weight gain/loss/gain/loss. This up and down stuff has to stop!!
There a few things you won't see on this blog: 1. my true weight. I am still not comfortable or free enough emotionally to put that down yet for the public to view! 2. pictures of me in scanty clothing documenting the change in my body! Again, not comfortable with that! What you will see will be the end product of the hard work I know I have to go through for the next 5 months, and a daily accounting of what I am doing to achieve my goal. There will be some food tips periodically as I come across them, and a countdown of the number of pounds I have lost to date. Also, this stream of consciousness stuff will allow me to - for the first time - put down my thoughts on what a lifelong struggle this really has been, hopefully tinged with some humor.
So, join my on my journey into ( hell!) weight loss territory and say a prayer that I make it to my goal.