Sick!

Sorry I haven't blogged in a few. I've been Ill once again - this time with an intestinal bug unrelated to the diet!! I was dining al desko the other day at work and suddenly felt really weak. Feeling lousy since then, but still following the diet plan. Today is day 11 and I am supposed to go food shopping today according to the plan. I have this big long HEALTHY list of foods to look for and buy and with recipe card floating around in the kitchen for all of them. This has actually been a relly good expereince because I can cook again - something I really haven't been doing for a while. ANd we're eating healthy all the time, which of course is good in itself.
SO I did the 12 minute sof cardio the other day and felt like jello the next morning: wiggly and wobbly. Tells you how out of shape I really am! I'm supposed to do 12 again this am and probably will, in between house cleaning and laundry. But I'm sure I won't be as tuned into it as I ws the other day before the belly bug hit.
ANd not weighing myself is KILLING ME!! OF every rule/part of this plan, this is the one that I am having the hardest time sticking to - I am, mind you - but it is a struggle every day not to hop on my scale. I tried hiding the bloody thing so I wouldn't even see it and be tempted, but that didn't work either. Oh well. 10 more days and I can see what my body has been doing.
Prayer helps.
Just not enough!!

exercise

Today I am supposed to incorporate 12 minutes of cardio into my busy daily schedule - sarcasm alert! I hate to exercise. Walking is about as vigorous as I get. The program has a 12 minute cd for a cardio workout, so I think I'm going to do that. As much as I hate it!

The diet part of the program is going well. I'm eating every 2-3 hrs, drinking upwards of 12 glasses of water daily, and eating 3 foodloversfat plates per day. I wake up ravenous - which the program tells you you should - so at least I'm doing that correctly. I just wish I could weigh myself. I can never tell just by looking at myself if I've lost any weight or not. The scale really is part of a food addiction, isn't it? Maybe this will be a good thing. Not knowing if I am losing will keep me honest. In the past if I'd lost a few pounds, that would give me a license to eat junk. Not knowing what I weight might be good because if I don't know, I won't sabotage myself and my loss potential. That Robert Ferguson is one smart dude! Method to the madness!

Had the best macaroni and cheese last night from the diet. Look below for the recipe. La liked it too, so you know, if El Exehente likes it, it must be good!

Wish me luck with exercising. I need it!

one week down!

Today is day seven of my FoodLoversFatLost program and I'm feeling great. Unfortunately, according to rule/day 5 I am not allowed to weigh myself so I really don't know if I've lost any more weight. I can't weight myself until day 22. Bummerville. But I do feel a little lighter. Is this real loss or just a psychological Jedi mind trick I'm playing on myself?? Who knows. Anyway, I haven't cheated yet and don't plan on doing so. I'm exercising when I can and being good. Having a tv in the basement helps TREMENDOUSLY! Thanks, La.

Pretty soon I know I'm going to have to deal with the reasons I overeat so often in this blog. I don't think I have the guts to put them down on cyberpaper yet. Maybe after I see some loss results I'll feel more confident to jot them down.Hopefully.

Keep me honest, friends. Keep reading, maybe write me. Anything to keep me honest.

No weighing!

So day 5 of this program is on, and the audio cd this morning tells me that I can't weight myself anymore until the end of the 21 day induction phase. Are you kidding me??!! I weigh myself 2-3 times a day! Not to be able to do it for another few weeks is going to TORTURE . Egads! I'm trying to psyche myself up for this, but of all the rules so far - and they've been fine and easy so far - this one is definitely going to be the hardest to perform. I'd rather give up Ring Dings ( which I have!) for life, or be told I can never drink real soda again ( which I can't!) than be told not to weigh myself for multiple weeks. Arghhh!!
SO that little pound count-downer at the left of this page is going to sit immobile for a while, folks. Sorry. Gotta follow THE RULES. Posting here will keep my honest. Otherwise I'd say hey, no way and be on that scale every 6-8 hrs. That really is a little much, now that I think of it. A little obsessive. COmpulsive, even. Maybe a touch psychotic.
Okay. Enough about the scale.
Shit.